Here you find thoughts, writing, articles, things that interest me, things I like and that inspire me, other work stuff I do. Hope you like it ;)
(Everyone has nicknames - as a child my friends called me Silly.)
Knowledge of the Heart & the Mind
The more I actually learn, read and understand the more I see what I do not know.
The pressure to be extraordinary, to get done at least two best four things the same time, to be quick – because everything is prior and needed immediatly to be done, to learn fast, to have a degree, to look good while doing all above...
The pressure seems huge.
And because the ones around you are in this circle too, they project their fears, anger, hurry, uncounsiousness, comparison, responsibility onto you.
If you are fully in it, you can loose contact to yourself easily. In those moments it is so rare that people take a break, breath and feel.
This is the rush that I see in a lot of women and men and also in me.
It is impossible to live like that in a long run.
The ego that kicks in in times like this where you are overloaded and runs crazy.
You bet what: It makes me feel worse.
Good thing is, you have the possiblility to get out of this cricle.
To get back to the basis, that everything is alright. To simply be and breath. That you being yourself are enough.
You are extraordinary no matter what. You get everything done. You have all the time you need.
Working a lot lately brings me to the very core and importance of self care, of self worth and love.
When it gets down to the bottom, then I know – I know deep down. It has nothing to do with believing. It is a very deep knowing. To have faith. The knowledge of the mind helps to do things, to work, to live – and stills it is endless to fill up. So the only thing is that you know that you know nothing. Actually this is relieve!
Feel the fear and do it anyway.
When I am in prayer I am safe, I am home. I am centered and grounded.
Have a look what is your prayer? Somtimes it is an inner dialog, monolog, being in silence, writing, painting, running, yoga, you name it!
You need just one minute a day. Pause before and after your meal, be grateful for the food on your plate. Before you get up in the morning, be in silence for a minute and then start your day. Infront of the computer at work, close your eyes and feel your breath!
It is simple as that. You are great and inimitable. You are enough.
LOVE AND INFINITY
One of the first moments that I remember was lying midst mountains of white fluffy feather duvets and cushions, beside me my grandpa. Feeling loved and protected. Thank you, grandpa.
Entering the ballet room. Being covered in this specific smell, the electric vibration, grace, movement and lyric. Every time I touch a ballet barre I feel home.
Being in nature. It is endless, full of freedom, clear, full of respect . As if I can feel the grass growing, smell the air and taste it, to see the dance of the leaves in the wind, listen to the wisdom of the trees.
Riding on a horse in the woods, feeling his breath, warmth and heart beat.
On one of my discovery tours through the fields, I found this feral place – the ‚secret garden’ as I called it. Full of beauty, pure and honest. Full of history in the momentum.
Being on stage as a dancer or as an actor. Again the smell and this sweet, special atmosphere. Every night performing is filled with excitement, nervousness and flurry. Being in the moment, jumping in the unknown. To open and let the emotions, words, stillness flow, to tell the story. The beauty of the moment, that is so quickly over and the next is already awaiting. Being present, to trust, being safe in the vulnerability. To be awake and aware every second.
On a film set. Midst in all the bustle being centered and awake. Sometimes the words, the hush, the movement and the emotion seem louder and intense than ever.
Meditation and prayer. Deliberating and in contact with the depth. The allowance of all the feelings. Being grounded and flying the same time. To show and share all the anger, sadness, beauty, vulnerability, the fear, laughter and to listen. Without judgement, being in its purest form. Being full of energy. Path of love.
The moment when you enter this space as Sally Kempton describes so wonderful, ‘sweetness of the vastness’. Timeless. Being. Acceptance.
Being held and loved by my beloved.
Sacred Space is trust, timeless, infinite, being, love, unconditional, nature, respect gratitude, magic and miracles, inner life force flowing, prayer, in contact to the divine, to G-d, the universe, existence, inner guide, mother earth, touching the sky and rooted in the ground.
A couple of years ago I visited an exhibition called ‚Identitymetamorphose’
It made me think and question what is ‚Identity’ ?
The word originates in Latin: ‚identitas’ , which translates as ‚sameness’.
There is personal identity, social identity, cultural identity in psychology, sociology and philosophy.
So, if we look at the social identity: „a man loved only his relatives or friends – those to whom he had blood ties or with whom he shared identity.“ (S. Boteach)
Is it possible to free yourself from the imprint on all layers? To a certain degree, yes. The minute you start to fully take the responsibility for your life and your actions, than you fully start to create your own personal identity. Based on where you come from.
If you analyse your history, than you can decide, what from your background fits to you, belongs to your momentum and what you want to free and let go off.
If I stop focusing on the social and imprinted identity, then there is space and contact to my personal identity – on a consious and aware level.
As children, we need identity for sure. Otherwise we are lost. We need the guidance to learn and be protected.
Identity and traditions are of value, if they make sense to me.
Like a mirror image of our caretakers; how did they live the identity and traditions? How aware and honest were they with themselves? If it is a fear guided identity, it is limiting and dishonest.
So, it is good to question and doubt what our ancestors do and value. It is about finding yourself midst all the things that you identify with.
In our today life – fast and furious – unpersonal and digital – there are many identities.
And still many people seemed to be lost. They start to follow a path of yoga identity, spiritual identity, vegan identitiy and enviromental awareness identity…
Does social identity give you emotional stability?
Is it a fake identity, so that we just seem to feel safe?
Is this only the outer – social identity?
In all the tradition, is it possible to live a modern life?
I followed a lot of social identites! Now I can say, I needed it, to try out, learn, grow, understand and find out what is my personal identity. I figured out that for me, the outer social identity – no matter which one- does not give me the inner stabiliy, sense, safeness. And I am still on my way ;)
It is the deeper understanding and knowing. Without the mind’s interpretation.
Are the identity and tradition rules, commandments, offers constricting?
Or do they ground and give you the possiblity to get in contact with your intuition and your deep inner guide?
When I listen to my inner guide it tells me and I know. Deep inside there is peace, allowance, without judgement.
And my tools are tradition – one of them is meditation – practiced my way!
Maybe this is why just a few people live their personal identity. The social judgement is huge and it is comfortable to follow existing rules.
Feel the fear and do it anyway!
To become consious and aware, in which parts of your life you live your own personal identity and where you follow the outer and social identity. To differenciate and honest with yourself acknowledge if you are attached or dependent on the social identity out of fear not being accepted, loved or seen.
We all cannot deny our cultural identity.
Same, same but different!
In the internet I found following text:
The earliest recorded use of the law appears to occur in Plato’s dialogue Theaetetus:
Socrates: How about sounds and colours: in the first place you would admit that they both exist?
Socrates: And that either of them is different from the other, and the same with itself?
Socrates: And that both are two and each of them one?
A lot of people donot need to question. This is wonderful and good.
Very early I knew where to go and what I wanted to do. What I liked and disliked. I always questioned.
Very early I told my mother; that her beliefs and her ‚right and wrong’ categories belong to her only. And that she, please, let me do my own failure and experience, so that I am able to decide for myself.
Actually, identity should give you freedom to be, to free and clear your mind, heart and soul.
We have the ability to think freely, to decide, to choose.
When we learn something, the first thing we do, we imitate what someone does. Then we internalize , make it our own and then we pass it on.
No matter what environmental conditioning and imprinting you are born with, you are in charge and in possession of the power over your life and your actions.
Psychologically viewed; first love yourself, do therapy, first respect yourself. Feel your anger, without being your anger.
Then you can respect and love others, without projecting.
Spiritually be wise and open.
If you want love, you have to give it, if you want respect you have to give it.
Be kind and spread kindness and love and give it.
It has nothing to do with religion, but with humanity.
I am shattered by so much hate, aggressivenes, thoughtlessness, people running in packs.
It is terrifying.
“Under conditions of tyranny it is far easier to act than to think. ” (Hannah Arendt)*
It does not matter if it is the big crowds, if they are Haters, Terrorists, Rassists, people who are paralysed in fear and see themselves as victims.
„such remoteness from reality and such thoughtlessness." (Hannah Arendt)*
There is need for more people in our everyday life who will raise their thoughts and wisdom in every way possible. People, who are courageous.
I, Me, Mine. If it is about I, Me, Mine, then you will continue to run in circles. Rise, give the energy and practice compassion.
Without acting out of the need to be loved and seen, to fulfill anyones expectations and so on and so forth.
Start to think and be wise.
To be honest with oneself is uncomfortable. It means being radical, direct and total.
Looking in the mirror and seeing the demon within looking right back without running away. Not getting distracted by TV, work, consumption, drugs, food, internet.
Honesty and being real leads to being aware and conscious.
Here, in our country, we have the opportunity to choose.
To think free. This is a reminder for all of us.
“The trouble was precisely that so many were like him, and that the many were neither perverted nor sadistic, that they were, and still are, terribly and terrifyingly normal. From the viewpoint of our legal institutions and of our moral standards of judgment, this normality was much more terrifying than all the atrocities put together“ (Hannah Arendt)*
“Clichés, stock phrases, adherence to conventional, standardized codes of expression and conduct have the socially recognized function of protecting us against reality.”
*Quotes from 'Eichmann in Jerusalem: A Report on the Banality of Evil' by Hannah Arendt